Some thinking late at night

I haven't really written a blog in FOREVER!!!

but anyways I wanted to write some thoughts down

I've been having some emotional issues the past couple of days. I mean I have been in a very good mood, but at the end of the day, I come home, and find some pictures of my grandpa, and I start to cry. I miss him very much. I guess I just wish that he could see how much improvement that I have made. I wish that he was here to tell me that he was proud of me. I keep crying, but it's a good cry I guess.

Another thing is that I am so blessed by my life right now. I have been very happy since I got back from Canada, and I can't believe I'm still in this much of a good mood. I have been having cabin fever a few times from being home all the time, but I think it's all good. I can't wait to move in the apartment with Bry in September.

The last, but certainly not least thing, I'm SOOOO excited that my sister is pregnant. I want to be an aunt again. The only thing that I have been "wondering" about is, if she has a girl, Dani is the god mother, but if it is a boy, I'm the god mother, because Dani doesn't want another god son. I'm asking for prayer because if you were thinking the thoughts that I thought when I found out about this, you would pray for me. I'm praying for myself to be humble. I don't necessarily want to be a god mother. I'm fine with being an aunt, but I don't want to tell Shawna that. So just pray that my mind will be in the right state so that I can make this decision, and pray that I will not get angry at my sister Dani for anything else.