something as simple as an avocado

There are some days where I miss him a little, but he’s still in the back of my head. But then there are these days, the days where I miss him the most. I go to the grocery store, see something that reminds me of him. I come home and I stare at a picture of him and cry wishing he could be back, but he won’t. I look back on home videos of when I was younger, when we were all happy at one point or another, and I can’t imagine then, losing him. But here, I’m hit with the harsh reality of what life is without him. I’m here telling myself that everything is going to be ok without him, and hoping it will be. The present is where we find ourselves, we cannot hold onto the past, because it is sometimes forgotten. But this I do know, he will never be forgotten. In the past 1 year, 10 months and 23 days it has been torture for me, but I have learned life lessons from each and everyday. Even when he’s gone, he opens up new things about me that I have never known. Everyday is a struggle, but looking at something as small as an Avocado, brings back all the good in my life, everything that he brought in my life, which was joy.